women's most nightmare

eating is one of my passion..

having a partner who loves the same passion makes us some kind of food hunter..

we're willing to travel far just to taste the food..

isn't that crazy..???

i love to cook as well..

seeing my two beloved people eating soundly making me happy..

and encourage me to cook more and more and more..

and as the result..

i still couldnt get my old pre pregnancy figure!!

lately..my passion towards food became worsen..

as i look into the mirror i could see me hating myself so badly..

i have extra baggage here and there..

i have this flabby tummy that i could not hide anymore!!

i had enough taking herbalife..

as you finish your "quarantine" and back to your normal routine life-no herbalife anymore and you loose a few kgs...

your eating habbit hit back to normal..

and all your herbalife effort became worthless..

i was so devastated and depress looking at myself..

and my depress-ness lead me to night mare where i have this weird dream at nights..

i was crying and and no self confidence, no motivation, no encouragement in my dreams..

masyaALLAH..what is happening to myself..

i have to admit..working..being a single mom when mr hubby is away is never easy job for me..

i wanted so badly to start my exercise but having my 1 year old toddler who is active somehow stopping me from doing so..

so for this new year's determination/target which has passed almost a month ago..

i need to do some workout..

i need to get back to my ideal weight!

it may sound easy but leaving my old routine which is food food and food may have lotsa obstacles..

Dear ALLAH..please give me some strength..i dont want to die young being an obese..

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~my good old days~

 

 just after solemnization

during my khatam:)