HAPPY 60 th BIRTHDAY MAMA

mama was born 60 years ago..

was raised by her mom and her step father..

her life was not as smooth as other children..

she was abused as a kid by her step father..

but that was wayyyyy back in her childhood time..

being a mother, she treated us well..

we did not grew up like the way she did..

totally different..

we were brought up with full of love, happiness and we had a great life back when i was a child..

living as a middle class..

my babah was an army in air force..

and mama was a housewife..

mama was so strict to us..

she is the one that yells, canes..even my brother got hit by her with batang ubi for being mischievous..

she is the one that cried, smiled and speaks with sharp words if you're doing silly things..

she always confused from brad pitt and tom cruise and end up calling brad pitt - robert pitt..

she also said rabbit and meant rebate!

i always make fun of her that..

back in 1991..

my arwah nenek passed away because of  larynx cancer..

mama took care of her and even slept at the hospital..

mama tried a lot of alternative treatments to cure arwah wa..

but when HE said its her time..there is nothing we can do except letting arwah wa go with redha..

it was the worse phase of our life when arwah wa passed away in our own house..

mama was sick for so long after arwah wa left us..

because she was very close to her..

and she herself took care of arwah wa..

its so hard for her to let her mom go..

last year while i was in england for 3 weeks..

mama was admitted to hospital..

her jaundice re-occur once again..

and this time doctor diagnosed her with hepatic cirrhosis..

i was so worried..and i felt like coming home..

but hearing her condition from babah calm me a bit..

every year her jaundice will appear..

and turn mama to yellow..

and it takes months for her skin to get backs to normal..

i always pray to ALLAH..

to give both my parents a healthy life, pray both of them to be there when my children gets married..

the best for both of them..

i love you mama..

i know i was the one that always object when i don't think thing suits me..

i always speaks back when i disagree..

i always do things that hurt you..

i always always always felt bad after that..

and mama once told me

"doesn't meant i am old i know everything, 

and doesn't meant you are young you know nothing..

sometimes the younger knows better than the older"

owh mama..

there is nothing in this world for me to buy or to repay your kindness..

there is no such amount of money in this world to replace you..

its you..my one and only mama..

babah, me and mama on my wedding day..

-love you yesterday, love you tormorrow, love you always, love you forever..